And so I enter the world of blogging... I'm not sure what I will do with this, but for some reason I feel compelled to start writing again, so here the journey shall begin.... Enjoy the ride.
The last time I had a blog was on Myspace, (does that age me??) :-P I kept that blog during a very emotionally trying point of my life and I found a sweet serenity in allowing my hands to race across the keyboard in an expression of who I was. Now I am not quite as lost, not quite as emotional, definitely not as depressed, but still my mind yearns for that escape that the keyboard brings. I'm not sure what I'm supposed to say, but I pray that God grants me the courage and the wisdom to figure that out along the way. In the meantime, I will do what I did so long ago, just type, no thinking or planning, just typing.
Today I realized that I have been complacent. I have been going through the motions and accepting those things that life brings my way without so much as a question or whisper of a rebuttal. It used to be that when I was faced with a crossroad I immediately would seek God and pray for His word to direct me. But lately that is not the case. Not that I am blatantly going against God's word, or anything so drastic. I'm simply not seeking Him as adamantly as I once did. So now I ask myself, why? Why have I allowed myself to get to this point of complacency? I don't have an answer, but I won't wait for one to come either. I must get up, I must get going.
I made a commitment to myself and to God today. A commitment to move forward. A commitment to press in and press on through the wreckage and find my way back to the path that He has for me. Daily prayer, fasting, daily readings, an accountability partner to make sure I don't sit back down. I refuse to sit back down. It is time to get up and move in the direction of God. In the past I have allowed myself the excuse of, "I'm waiting for God to speak" or "He hasn't told me which way to go" but those are just ways to waste time. If you know God, you know the path He has for you... It's really not as difficult as some make it, (my old self included). Put one foot in front of the other, WALK! Speak His word, speak life, encourage others, share your testimony, SMILE!
A smile is one of the most underestimated actions that we as a people can take. Sometimes you don't have the words to speak or the time to speak them. Sometimes the person you are speaking to has been so hurt by the church or people that they are simply not receptive to anything that you have to say. That's where a smile comes in. A smile warms the heart in a matter of a second. It is the ultimate conversation starter. You don't have to wear a cross or clothing with scriptures on it (not that there is anything wrong with that) all you have to do is smile. Through any circumstance, through any situation, if you can find a reason to smile, it will be noticed. Then when someone asks you, "Why you are smiling? How can you smile at a time like this?", you can tell them, "My God is greater than this situation, and since He is in control, all is well."
Don't forget to smile
Rosemary
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